All my activities wore me out today. And to think that I did not do much, really. Sent out a few emails, received a couple of phone calls, texted a little, finally printed out my 2010 planner, petted my kittens, and cooked delicious french fries sloppy joe’s style.
Oh and did I mention I worried myself out the whole day over a friggin’ printer?
Yes I did. Sadly. It’s like a stupid habit of mine. Much like crafting and drawing, my next favorite thing to do is worry AND get angry. If Anger and Worry had a school named after them, I’d be a valedictorian.
Sigh. It eats up my sanity, really. It destroys great moments with Allen. It crushes hope. It diminishes love. And it kills life. It kills my life for that matter. Perhaps this first week of the year has been used by the Universe to open up my eyes so I can understand what A&W (my kind of drink lol) does to me and my life. Well kudos to the Universe for it has done its job well. 
Before I wrote this entry, I felt terribly tired. It was as if I worked in a construction site and carried 100 bags of cement on my back the whole day. That’s how tired I felt. And then recalling today’s events, I realized I spent more than half of it sulking in A&W. So there.
I will work beyond this ‘cancer’ because I am more than this and I know I can overcome this bad habit.
Time to change, Issa.
